The negative thoughts came out of nowhere. No warning or sign. It’s like I was walking down the aisle at the grocery store, distracted and looking the other way and then BAM I turned around to collide with an ex boyfriend I shared a bad break up with and a regrettable part of my past. … Continue reading Clean Up in Aisle 6: When Depression Knocks You Down
The boldness of others has caused some of my greatest personal growth. I was blessed to live in a community last year where the opportunity for feedback was frequent. I had many friends who would confront me in love. One growth moment in particular came on a day when I was stuck in a negative … Continue reading Shut Up Before You Kill Someone: Choosing to Speak Life not Death
For a big portion of my life, I was dishonest to both myself and to others. I was so focused on shoving any negative emotions down that I never allowed myself to truly feel pain. The pain of death, the pain of divorced parents, the pain of practically any life experience that hurt – I … Continue reading Freedom through Pain
A few years ago, my friend Brendan told me that he could always tell what was going on in my life at any time based on the state of my hair. I sat on the edge of his bed while he sat on the edge of his desk chair, some friend from film class filling the … Continue reading A Love Letter to the Control Freaks: It’s Okay to Let Go
Proverbs 25:28 “A man without self-control is like a city broken into and left without walls.” Ever since I was a small child, I’ve struggled with the sins of lust and masturbation. But until recently, I didn’t realize how deep those sins were rooted. Five months ago, I was exactly what Proverbs 25:28 talks about … Continue reading God Confronted My Struggle With Lust and Masturbation
Lorde’s hit song, Tennis Court, contains a lyric that captivates me. “It’s a new art form, showing people how little we care.” Part of me wonders if she wrote that after scrolling through her Facebook newsfeed on a midweek afternoon. She probably didn’t. But that lyric perfectly illustrates one ugly, uncomfortable truth: you and I … Continue reading Hey Christians, I’ve Got a Bone to Pick with Your Facebook Rants
Do you ever feel like you are too much? Too competitive? Too sensitive? Too Loud? Too quiet? Sometimes I struggle feeling like I am too much of something, in my case, it is usually too competitive. The other day it was a beautiful sunny day outside, one of the first signs of spring and I … Continue reading Why Less Isn’t More.
“I need to thank you for saying ‘no’ to me.” How often do you thank people for rejection? If you’re like me, I’m assuming never. Rejection is not something we thank people for. No one likes rejection, giving it or getting it. Being turned down, whether for a job or a date or anything else, … Continue reading Thank You for Your Rejection
Have you ever found yourself talking about a person who wronged you, just so others will respond incredulously? That response of “I can’t believe it!” or “No, he didn’t!” justifies a sense of self-righteous anger and bitterness. Bitterness might be one of the easiest emotions to give in to. Especially since, in most cases, bitterness … Continue reading Battling the Bitterness
Life has been a blur in recent months. With working 40 hours a week to taking 18 hours of school, there hasn’t been much time for anything, really. That mixed with trying to find community, trying to sleep and rest and be… life is chaos. Life is even more chaotic because I haven’t given the … Continue reading Confessions of a Writer Who Doesn’t Write.